Self image is a tricky thing. We all suffer from the impeding judgement of every flaw we recognize within ourselves. It is our natural state to compare ourselves to one another, and even more common that we see others strengths and virtues and not our own. How much of how we conduct ourselves can be chalked up to this mechanism? The judgement of others affects us so long as we value that judgement. But more so, it’s the judgement of the self that blocks the inner self from shining - suffocating it with shrewd disposition.
Personally, dealing with dysphoria, I’ve found these compound on one another. Dysphoria already deals so much with self image - not at all related to how other perceive me, but how I feel within and about myself. A feeling of not being present or at home in your own body is indescribable to people who don’t feel it. Theories can be construed as to why this is - and believe me - being the skeptical, logically strong-armed person that I am, I constructed several conspiracies over time trying to argue myself out of just accepting this is a part of me.
More so, to travel outside the normative kingdom, to be and express truth of self, can very well be a dangerous journey. Fraught with perils of the demons of self and society, with several pitfalls along the ridge to freedom.
But it may yet be possible for one to walk that path. It takes mindfulness, openness, course correction, and courage. It’s not about winning in any social economy, but about throwing it off all-together - a true embrace of your own individual. Beauty may glimmer, but style will shine true. Outer confidence may give you social credit, but inner fortitude will grant you unbreakable bonds. And most of all, the peril is in the fight. The serenity is in surrender.
A big thank you for her wisdom and encouragement, and for being an amazing friend and photographer: @rebekahboatrite
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