The dreaded day has come...the day I’m moving out to go inpatient at a Eating Disorder Clinic. Words can’t even describe the type of emotions I’m feeling from terrified to upset to homesickness already. But one emotion that I’m sure of is despite how hard and challenging it’s going to be I’m ready to walk out of inpatient a much stronger,happier and healthier girl who might not of beaten this illness 100% but she sure as hell has way more control over it and ready to stop laying on her deathbed and start living a life again!🦋
bad day, but good ice cream
This was my night snack; oatmeal with strawberries and proteinella + quark which I put on after. I’m allowed to exercise again after some really bad weeks. But my goal is to be healthy before school starts again, then I really need to fight. It’s so hard, but I know it’s worth it. ❤️
did this for @molls.trying
yesterday whilst watching love island 🌴(it’s all her fav foods ;) ... and Im in love with the concept!! (Even if i do say so meeeself 😋) An entire page, dedicated to all of someone’s favorite things ☺️☺️😊
Bassically I need new ideas of things to paint and I have all of you lot following me.... so... go on then.... what’s YOUR top 3 to five favorite things EvEr?! 😉
Food, flowers, pets, smells..... lets have the lot 😉😉😝
Now I say original but what I actually mean is a miserable small version of what what a master piece! This used to be a milk chocolate coated vision of caramel, salted nuts and soft nought. Now I get a tiny bar (thanks sugar tax) which limits the balance of flavours and textures. Once a die hard snickers fan, now I might be turned to ... date I say it? A mars bar girl.... only joking - I always want to get some nuts!
First time I had Dominos, first pizza in years and I finished this WHOLE pizza with mushrooms and ate TWO of the stuffed spinach feta rolls!! Y‘all can be proud of me and my thoughts aren’t as bad as expected but I‘m sure Ana‘s coming to haunt me when it’s dark... Going to watch „Evangelion“ with my brother now. Have a nice evening and I hope your week started well ❤️
#recovery #anorexiafight #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiarecover #anorexiafighter #pizza #dominos
GUESS WHO FACED BUFFET WITH THE HOME CARE AGAIN??? This boiiiii!
And I ate more than I did last time, and I didn’t restrict for that! Because eating a bit more for once won’t make me fat. And you know what? Sushi is way too good to not eat a little bit more than usual 😋
Recovery is so so much more than weight.
When Ed is around he takes away your voice, your thoughts, and even your identity. You have to rediscover your morals, your beliefs and who you are as a person. I don’t have the answers to get there unfortunately, I’m not exactly there myself but I promise you can always ALWAYS talk to me. DM’s are always open. We can do this together. I know you are scared but think of me as a friend who you can talk to about literally anything and I will help you the best I can to get through it. I know I don’t know you personally, but I am getting through recovery for us. We can beat this monster. I know we can 👊🏻