Mittagessen von heute🔝WRAPS🤭 Ich hatte die schon so lange nicht mehr 🤷♀️ Aber bei dem heißen Wetter habe ich auch nicht wirklich Appetit auf warmes Essen.
Ansonsten war mein Tag eher langweilig. Ich habe ein bisschen aufgeräumt und mich um meine Haustiere gekümmert. Für morgen habe ich auch nichts geplant 🙄 weswegen es mal wieder ein sehr langweiliger Tag wird..
Ich habe neulich ja gefragt, ob ihr Fragen an mich habt, die ich mal in einem Post beantworten soll⬇️
Q:Hattest du jemals wirkliche Suizid Gedanken?
A: Ja hatte ich, aber das ist zum Glück besser geworden
Q:Glaubst du man kann zu 100% recovered sein?
A: Nein, ich glaube nicht. Die ES wird mich oder wahrscheinlich euch ein Leben lang begleiten. Es wird Phasen geben, wo es euch richtig gut geht und ihr vielleicht gar nicht solche Gedanken habt, aber ich denke, dass es eben auch genau das Gegenteil sein kann. Aber wir werden lernen damit umzugehen und solche Gedanken zu unterdrücken und das ist meiner Meinung nach ein sehr wichtiger Punkt.
Q: Wovor hast du wirklich Angst?
A: Ich weiß nicht genau wie das gemeint ist, aber ich habe teilweise Verlustängste, generell habe ich Angst vor Spinnen und so ziemlich den meisten Insekten, durch die ES Angst vor einer Zunahme und auch Angst vor der Klinik
Q: Was hilft dir dich abzulenken, wenn es dir schlecht geht?
A: Spaziergänge, Sims spielen, Serien schauen, Freunde treffen
So, das waren alle Fragen die gestellt wurden. Soll ich sowas öfters machen?
Ich wünsche euch noch einen schönen Abend, bei dieser unerträglichen Hitze🙄🌄🤭
#recovery #ana #lunch #anorexiarecovery #edfam #edwarrior #edfighter #weightgain #gaininglife #magersucht #healthy #ed #eatingdisorder #anafighter #eatittobeatit #eattobeatit #strongnotskinny #selflove #edrecovery #fightagainstana #recoverywin #depressionfighter #foodporn #instafood #Wraps #fuckana
Hello ☀️ A big bowl of fruit on sunny days are more than perfect, right? 👅
And chocolate because I love it haha 🍫
What's your favorite kind of fruit? 🍉
Have a good evening 🌇
if you love stir fries as much as I do but don’t want to spend £££ on expensive noodles each time then buy packets of instant noodles (14p in tescos 🤩)
this meal cost me around £1
who said veganism is expensive??
I have my next driving lesson tomorrow after my appointment. Hopefully both go okay! 😬
• Skills •
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀~If I've learned anything during my stay here, it's the importance of coping skills/distractions. Because you won't always feel great during recovery. Actually. Recovery can be hell. Not always. But in my experience it's a bumpy ride. And I consider myself very resourceful regarding coping and rationalising. So I recommend you go and find something to do, when you've got a lot of time on your hands. At the beginning I would puzzle a lot. Because I could do it even with a malnourished brain. Now I've moved onto other things. Things that actually keep me motivated for recovery. Because they need a high functioning brain. This cube for example. I want to get better and quicker at solving it. Or playing strategic board games that take 3hrs. I'd never be able to do that in relapse because it would mean sitting for so long and I'd not comprehend it. Simple as that.
Reading too. In the beginning, things like watching series or movies, knitting and crocheting are best. I don't recommend active coping strategies for ed recovery. I'm guilty of using them under the pretence of skills when in reality they are close to disordered behaviour. You need rest. Not action. You need food. Not starvation. You need self compassion. Not self discipline. ~
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀~Sending out virtual hugs to everyone out there struggling today (and everyone else who needs one of course ❤️)
Mood today is pink haired queer. But me being cute isn’t the point of this post. Instead, I want to talk about my relationship with ARFID and anorexia. @samdylanfinch
drew attention to this in a great post I 11/10 recommend you check out bc these conversations are so important.
For me, as many of you know, my ARFID started at a young age partially due to being #actuallyautistic
and also as a coping mechanism for trauma. When I was an adolescent it began to morph into anorexia but rather than one disorder replacing each other it’s more like they are in competition. My safe food for ARFID are judged harshly by my anorexia—in fact, my anorexia judges everything. I am never good enough for anorexia.
A big component for me in my recovery from both is meal support. I struggle to eat by myself due to trauma, and bc of my disability I need extra help with meal prep. I shared this in an ED support group last week and one of the group members responded with “well you can’t expect someone to baby sit you for your meals the rest of your life.” I wanted to cry bc my anorexia took advantage of the shaming, telling me I could never recover, I was hopeless, etc.
truth is, I can recover. But my ARFID recovery may take a totally different path than the traditional picture of recovery, and that’s okay. #eatingdisorderrecovery #arfidrecovery #edrecovery #arfid #anorexia #anorexiawarrior #anorexiarecovery #bulimia #bulimiafighter #bulimiarecovery #ableism #queer
bad day, but good ice cream
Semolinapudding aka Grießbrei😍😍 this was my lunch yesterday:) soo there aren't many news.. I survived my written exams and have only the oral exam left until I graduate!! Can't believe it yet.. I should study all day like my classmates but I think all of you know that depressed mood when you just wanna sleep all day? Yes thats me right now.. tomorrow I have an appointment with my dietician and I really don't wanna go bc of weigh in.. haha
Anyway I just hope that summer passes really fast because I don't wanna stay at home w/ my parents any longer.. in september I'm going to Krems an der Donau to study Medical & Pharmaceutical Biotechnology and I'm looking forward to that because it means going away from home and living alone.. which I think is quite a good idea and maybe kicks my depression in the butt.. hopefully.. so thats it for today.. wish you a wonderful evening❤ xxx Lou
Dessert is Gü Salted caramel cheese cake 🍰 Ngl still haven’t eaten this yet because guilttt lol
Have you experienced extreme hunger in ED recovery? 🤔
Dinner is a mini pepperoni pizza 🍕 with fries 🍟 and every condiment under the sun lol (I didn’t finish all of them though) really enjoyed this despite the guilt being sky high, Have a nice evening ❤️
Ok so I’ve never had an actual ‘shakshuka’ and I can’t pronounce/spell the word but I loosely followed a random recipe and this was the outcome and it was pretty damn tasty if I do say so myself💁🏼♀️ I topped it with some Alpro Greek style yogurt instead of an egg and it was soo good! There’s also 2 massive slices of Tesco rye sourdough underneath which is the love of my life💕
On another note, thank you so much to the lovely people that commented on my posts from yesterday and sent me kind messages - I still can’t believe how kind a community Instagram can be and it shows that social media can actually be such an amazing thing, despite the bad press it gets! I’ve had a much better day today and have kept myself occupied and tried to do lots of little things like going for a walk, sending some emails, tidying the house, making a yum lunch and ofc yoga✨ everyone has bad days and no matter how bad yesterday or today was, you have the power to make tomorrow a little bit better🌙