When you start looking back, there's never been anyone to tell me to smile but in photos we are always told to? Why?
Are people ashamed that one day we might be having a bad day. Our hair may not be on point or our make up isn't perfectly drawn on.
It's been a long road these last few months where ive had to learn to love myself and be happy in my own company and there's no guide to that. Theres no way anyone can describe some of the loneliness that you feel when you come home to an empty home knowing that you've faced another day. On the other hand there's also a huge moment when you realise how proud you are that you've done something that by choice you would have relied on someone else for.
Friends come and go and some are there temporarily and some are permanent. Some you can pour your heart out to and others you can barely say a word. But they are there somewhere in the depths of what seems like sometimes a consuming mist of completely rubbish days. And if the people that you thought would be there aren't then maybe there's some life lessons there.
When it comes to family we all want to protect them and do the best you can but sometimes you have to just put your heart on the line and say I'm having a bad day and at the end of it all they are always there. It's easy to live far away and keep yourself hidden away but in reality all family ever want is that phone call or text saying 'hey'. It's never to late to talk and open up and I did and in return I found out more about my health and this is one of those moments that you'd want someone to be by your side but instead I go back to the sense of accomplishment when you achieve something on your own, it may be something small like an injection but it's a massive moment to say that I can do this.
Anxiety is a word thrown around all to much and it's hard to understand sometimes what it is and why it happens and in reality I'm not really sure I do. When something creeps up on you and you sit worrying knowing that you can't fix it and that you can't necessarily do anything about it. When your up at 4am reviewing your life... So remember that behind these photos where there's a smile there's a person....
Seen too many good days & also too many bad ones. 3 years ago I had my own business. Fucked it all up to my addictions and bad choices. The more times you fall you get stronger & get shit back quicker. Today I stand strong, sober and ready to take over again. It’s time to get it all back & reach new heights. It’s time to hit this milly before 27! Day by day, call by call I’ll remember my fall & where I’m going. 💯
We have the power to become the observer rather than the observed. This shift in consciousness separates us from the thoughts that continue to weigh us down. When we can sit and watch them and try to understand where they are coming from, rather than allow them to control us, we can move forward.
The link to the full video is in my bio, if the message resonates with you. ❤️
“The great composer does not set to work because he is inspired, but becomes inspired because he is working.” ~Ernest Newman~
We have a tendency to wait for inspiration or a sign to do the “things” we need or want to do, especially when they are new.
I see this so often with people who want to start exercising, eating better, or just improve their health in general. They are waiting for a sign, a spark, some inspiration.... Guess what? It’s probably not going to happen.
I didn’t start because I had any of these. I knew I needed to do it, and I made myself start. Some days, heck more often than not, I don’t really want to. Yet, I see the bigger picture. I see that by being consistent, great things have happened physically, mentally, and even in the reports I get from the doctor. So I continue. I find my inspiration in the changes that have come from “going to work.”
You are capable too. You can “go to work” and find the inspiration later. If you’re struggling and really need a sign. Here it is. If you need someone to hold you accountable, I’m here. You just have to MAKE yourself commit to start.
Dinner - tofu stir fry over brown rice! TW for the rest of this, I have a case of Big Sad. -
Struggling with super low mood today. I’m so frustrated that no medication or efforts to do my best with school/eating/self care is raising my mood. Tbh super strong self harm urges (I even dreamed about it last night which is disturbing) and suicidal thoughts are really loud. I’m not going to act on the suicidal thoughts, but they’re still there and it’s so debilitating. -
I’m so not prepared for classes tomorrow. I’m used to demanding perfection from myself, and working at school at the cost of my mental health. -
So trying to accept the hard thoughts, acknowledge that they don’t serve me, and focusing on taking action to improve my situation. For me, that means eating all of my meal plan (no matter how much I want to restrict to numb everything), taking a bubble bath to ride out sh urges, and forgiving myself for not accomplishing all of my schoolwork. Also writing about it and sharing how I’m feeling - it keeps me accountable and takes away the shame surrounding these thoughts/feelings. -
Hope you all have a nice week 💫
It’s true that we can not always change our physical location or financial situation or some of the people we are forced to interact with BUT that does not mean our power is completely limited. 🌿 we always have the opportunity to change something for the better.
This “something” may be our perspective of our situation, how we choose to view it, or how we choose to react to it. We can choose to succumb to a mindset where we allow excuses to rule (“i can’t because...” “ i can’t until he/she....”)OR we can choose to find a way to excel in spite of those excuses.
I never said it would be easy but I did say it was possible.
Last night I had a scare. I felt a pain in my back that I haven’t felt in a long time. Then all the negative thoughts started circling and filling up my head. “Is this the beginning of another serious injury?” “Will I be able to continue my workout program?” “Will I still be able to walk?” “Will I have to stop working?” “IS THIS HAPPENING ALL OVER AGAIN?” When I woke up this morning, the tears came and I had my moment.
Then I made a decision.
I could either give in to those thoughts or I could flip the script.
I decided to focus on gratitude, the things I could do, and I told myself that I was healthy and strong.
Working out, losing weight, and improving my nutrition are some of the amazing benefits of being a coach and being part of a wellness team, but the absolute best part has been my mindset shift. When I first started looking for a workout program to get into shape, I never imagined that I would gain the confidence and positive outlook that I have now. So, this morning I was able to have my moment of fear and then flip the script to turn my day around. I’m not sure what tomorrow will bring, but I know I will be able to handle whatever comes. Want some more info or ideas on how to turn those negative thoughts around? Let me know. ❤
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In utilizing this amazing protocol we are able to remove the NEC and actually change the central nervous system. This has never been shown in previous mind-body techniques.
In return we can change pain signals, free the body and the mind from old thought patterns that we created for survival, and create a new reality for ourselves. This protocol can be used to treat nearly any medical condition. We can not separate the mind from the body or the body from the mind.
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