Just a few versions of my NO Face. .
I've never had a very strong "poker face" aka my face shows my emotions clearly, unless I am expending a lot of energy to keep a straight face - or I have completely disassociated and am very much not at home - only then will my face give little to no indication of of my feelings. Part of the reason I used to think I just had chronic fatigue syndrome was because I spent so much energy controlling my expression. And I didn't even realize I was disassociating most of my life until a few years ago when I found I couldn't do it anymore. .
As a highly sensitive person in a world that doesn't always (read: almost never) know what to do with emotional depth, it's been a painful and tumultuous journey from believing my emotions were wrong, to even thinking I was the only one who felt things so deeply, to come to a place where not only am I no longer ashamed of how strongly I feel, but to be at a place where I realize the truth that I was given this gift of sensitivity to help move the collective onto higher heights. .
To have come from a place where second guessing myself and doubting my truth was the norm to trusting my intuition above all else - not an easy journey in the least, but one very much worth the effort. I wouldn't go back for all the gold in the world. .
If you find yourself doubting what you feel, arguing against yourself and what you feel, your noes and even your yeses, you may have been severed from your intuition. Don't worry, it's not a permanent severe. It never is. It can always be repaired and strengthened. .
I used to downplay my needs and my noes and my boundaries at every turn because I didn't want to make anyone feel bad. I didn't want to inconvenience them. Meanwhile I was greatly inconveniencing myself and suppressing myself and feeling more and more disconnected. .
If reconnecting with your intuition interests you, please reach out as I am available for one-on-one sessions where we can discuss more and I can teach you how to reconnect. 💫 Please enjoy my selfies inspired by a white woman wearing a Native American style feathered headdress for a "spiritual" photoshoot aka most def a big NO
The shift comes slowly. A little less angry, think of “it” less, hurt less and laugh more. 💗
Speaking out changed relationships with both parents and my non- narcissist sister. It has been really hard coming to the realization that speaking out on abusive behavior could cause a strain on what were once extremely close relationships. I just refuse to accept and be silent any longer.