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FDOE Of my first summer day. Since I’m at a place where my ED first started, it’s harder to feel hungry and my mind started slightly rushing after a long time... but it’ll pass, it has to. One of My all time biggest best friends is coming to this area in a month and I know she’ll support the hell out of me. I must stay calm. For her :3 #strongerthanmyeatingdisorder #strongerthanana #strongerthananarmy #strongerthanmymind #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexianerviosa #recovery #anorexicgirl #anorexiamemes #anorexic #anorexiaawareness #eatingdisorderrecovery #eattolive #anarecovery #edfam #edrecovery #recoveryisworthit #foodismedicine #edfighter #eatittobeatit #fuckanorexia #anawho #anabegone #nourishtoflourish #scalesdontmatter #recoveryed #recoveringanorexic #IAMNOT1in5
TW So today it's really hot. I decided to have a pint of ice cream after having "finished eating for today" spontaneously and went out to buy it. They didn't have the one I wanted (mango pineapple) and I was tempted to just leave but then bought vanilla. I ate the whole pint really fast and afterwards binged. Last time I binged it had also been after this ice cream. Now I locked myself in my room as the urge to throw up is really strong because I ate so much I feel sick but on the other hand I fear getting into a circle of binging more often and throwing up. That's the only thing that keeps me from purging. I just feel horrible now. ___♡____♡___♡____♡___ #recoveryquotes #quotes #nature #naturelovers #naturephotography #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #recovery #edfighter #anorexiafighter #edwarrior #anorexiawarrior #quote #eatittobeatit #stayalive #edfam #prorecovery #mentalhealthawareness #edawareness #anaawareness #beatingana #selflove #positivity #magersuchtrecovery #mentalhealth #fightingana #positivequotes #quotesaboutlife #essstörungrecovery #tigers4worlddomination2020revolutionmovement
I made biryani tonight - 2 portions, so 1 for dinner and 1 for lunch tomorrow :) it was yummm Making things that are more than 1 serving, so I have to divide it, really stresses me out - am I dividing it evenly? Is there equal calories and carbs and protein and fat in each portion? But I NEED to get over that bc fuck me it's so irrational and I literally should not care lol #recovery #edrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #foodisfuel #yummy #mhrecovery #depressionrecovery #positivity #bodypositivity #bepositive #realrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #eatingdisorder #anorexia #beatana #fuckana #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #edfam #edwarrior #nourishtoflourish #eatittobeatit #foodismedicine #loveyourself #loveyourbody #selflove #selfcare
Mittagessen von heute🔝WRAPS🤭 Ich hatte die schon so lange nicht mehr 🤷‍♀️ Aber bei dem heißen Wetter habe ich auch nicht wirklich Appetit auf warmes Essen. Ansonsten war mein Tag eher langweilig. Ich habe ein bisschen aufgeräumt und mich um meine Haustiere gekümmert. Für morgen habe ich auch nichts geplant 🙄 weswegen es mal wieder ein sehr langweiliger Tag wird.. Ich habe neulich ja gefragt, ob ihr Fragen an mich habt, die ich mal in einem Post beantworten soll⬇️ Q:Hattest du jemals wirkliche Suizid Gedanken? A: Ja hatte ich, aber das ist zum Glück besser geworden Q:Glaubst du man kann zu 100% recovered sein? A: Nein, ich glaube nicht. Die ES wird mich oder wahrscheinlich euch ein Leben lang begleiten. Es wird Phasen geben, wo es euch richtig gut geht und ihr vielleicht gar nicht solche Gedanken habt, aber ich denke, dass es eben auch genau das Gegenteil sein kann. Aber wir werden lernen damit umzugehen und solche Gedanken zu unterdrücken und das ist meiner Meinung nach ein sehr wichtiger Punkt. Q: Wovor hast du wirklich Angst? A: Ich weiß nicht genau wie das gemeint ist, aber ich habe teilweise Verlustängste, generell habe ich Angst vor Spinnen und so ziemlich den meisten Insekten, durch die ES Angst vor einer Zunahme und auch Angst vor der Klinik Q: Was hilft dir dich abzulenken, wenn es dir schlecht geht? A: Spaziergänge, Sims spielen, Serien schauen, Freunde treffen So, das waren alle Fragen die gestellt wurden. Soll ich sowas öfters machen? Ich wünsche euch noch einen schönen Abend, bei dieser unerträglichen Hitze🙄🌄🤭 ~•~•~•~• #recovery #ana #lunch #anorexiarecovery #edfam #edwarrior #edfighter #weightgain #gaininglife #magersucht #healthy #ed #eatingdisorder #anafighter #eatittobeatit #eattobeatit #strongnotskinny #selflove #edrecovery #fightagainstana #recoverywin #depressionfighter #foodporn #instafood #Wraps #fuckana
• Skills • ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀~If I've learned anything during my stay here, it's the importance of coping skills/distractions. Because you won't always feel great during recovery. Actually. Recovery can be hell. Not always. But in my experience it's a bumpy ride. And I consider myself very resourceful regarding coping and rationalising. So I recommend you go and find something to do, when you've got a lot of time on your hands. At the beginning I would puzzle a lot. Because I could do it even with a malnourished brain. Now I've moved onto other things. Things that actually keep me motivated for recovery. Because they need a high functioning brain. This cube for example. I want to get better and quicker at solving it. Or playing strategic board games that take 3hrs. I'd never be able to do that in relapse because it would mean sitting for so long and I'd not comprehend it. Simple as that. Reading too. In the beginning, things like watching series or movies, knitting and crocheting are best. I don't recommend active coping strategies for ed recovery. I'm guilty of using them under the pretence of skills when in reality they are close to disordered behaviour. You need rest. Not action. You need food. Not starvation. You need self compassion. Not self discipline. ~ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀~Sending out virtual hugs to everyone out there struggling today (and everyone else who needs one of course ❤️) ~
bad day, but good ice cream
I absolutly love semolina porridge. Today I mixed half of it with cocoa powder. Divine! . In my instagram story I thanked all of you and I want to say it again: THANK YOU❤ . But my biggest thank you goes to @sandjii_16 (it's amazing we're still friends after all this time and I'm so so happy to connect with you again, you are a beautiful sparkle in this world❤), @jasmiin_br (I love you so so much. I love your laughter, your smile, your angry face, your positivity, your honesty. You are an amazing person, that I admire so much❤) @autumnbrianne (a wild woman full of magic, power, rawness and love. My biggest idol, I love you❤), @sudd99 (I wish we would live in the same country but you are and will always be a sister to me, you are such a beautiful woman from the inside and outside, I love you❤), my mum, my sister, my family and all my friends who share their thoughts with me and which whom I can share mine.
Dessert is Gü Salted caramel cheese cake 🍰 Ngl still haven’t eaten this yet because guilttt lol
Have you experienced extreme hunger in ED recovery? 🤔
Dinner is a mini pepperoni pizza 🍕 with fries 🍟 and every condiment under the sun lol (I didn’t finish all of them though) really enjoyed this despite the guilt being sky high, Have a nice evening ❤️
@snickers original. - - - Now I say original but what I actually mean is a miserable small version of what what a master piece! This used to be a milk chocolate coated vision of caramel, salted nuts and soft nought. Now I get a tiny bar (thanks sugar tax) which limits the balance of flavours and textures. Once a die hard snickers fan, now I might be turned to ... date I say it? A mars bar girl.... only joking - I always want to get some nuts!
Dear whoever is reading this, You’re incredible even when you feel you’re not. You might feel lost now, but great things are coming your way. You’re stronger than you think, and have a lot to accomplish, don’t give up. Remember, you matter and you’re not alone.💕 #eatingdisorderawareness #eatittobeatit #edfam #edfighters #edtreatment #edcommunity #foodisnottheenemy #foodisfuel #anorexia #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #anorexiarecovery #fuckED #ED #alwayskeepfighting #staystrong #warrior #fighter #redheadsofinstagram #gauges #septum #quotes #goodvibes #happy #followme #boise #idaho
•dinner today was a mushroom burger, kidney beans, cucumber and spinach🤤 it feels so weird because i used to have this like every day at uni and havent had it since haha! Can you have nostalgia for something that was a few months ago?😂 Hope everyones gooood🌈 • • • #ana #anafam #anafamily #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiafam #anorexiafamily #anorexiarecovery #ed #edfam #edfamily #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #balancednotclean #strongnotskinny #food lol
I’m sat here with 2 of my cats purring loudly and surrounding me. This rarely happens, but they can sense when something’s wrong. I’ve been putting up an always-happy facade for a while now and over the past couple days it has caught up with me a little. But with the help of some amazing people I’m getting through this little dip and I’m sure things will go steadily back up again (starting with going to a theme park tomorrow which should be fun!) My care co noticed on her second appointment with me that there was a darker side to my bright exterior and she’s encouraging me to be more open about it so that’s what I’ve been trying to do lately. I know that this low mood might just always be in the back of my mind but more often than not I can push it aside and still have fun and actually when I’m hanging out with friends or Erin it can pretty much go away completely but temporarily - that’s what I’m going to focus on doing this summer, spending time with the people I love 💛
Hallo ihr lieben, #tb zu dieser fantastischen #pizza 😍. ~•~•~•~•~•~ Gestern ist etwas gar nicht schönes passiert und gestern ist etwas unerwartet schönes passiert. Ich möchte nichts verschreien, was nicht spruchreif ist. Weil es die letzten Male immer doch nicht geklappt hat am Ende. Deshalb möchte ich gerade nicht mehr als in Rätseln darüber zu schreiben. Was ich aber glasklar sagen kann: Dass sich Leben ausbreitet in mir. Und das Leben ist nicht immer nur Lächeln. Das Leben ist Glück und Wut, Trauer und Gelächter. Das Leben ist Fluch und Segen. Doch wegen dieses Segens, der manchmal Wirklichkeit wird, ist es wert, die Berg- und Talfahrt auf sich zu nehmen. Nach jedem Tal wird ein Berg kommen 🥰.
Day 49 of not counting calories + following my meal plan| Sorry for the messy pictures hahah, but today’s dinner were 2 wraps! Had a vegetarian cheese burger and loads of veggies with them (as you can see on the pics, can’t even see the burger 😂) But Yeah it was super good. I saw my therapist today too, we decided that it’d be a good thing to do some food challenges. I already ate a bowl of chips as a snack, and had Nutella on my bread for lunch. Tomorrow I’m going to have mayonnaise as a sauce with dinner! And somewhere this week I’ll have pizza for dinner too. So yeA, super nervous for that, but still gonna do ittt - - - - - - - - - - - - - #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #edfight #beatana #edwarrior #positivity #motivation #foodisfuel #anorexianervosa #eatittobeatit #challenged #icandothis #acceptance #food #dinner #snacks #lunch #recoverywin #anarecovery #recovery #anorexiarecoverymeal #edfam #vegetarian #goodfood #delicious #nourish #nourished #health #healthy
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So shit really went down over last week. Like shit I’m so embarrassed to admit but need to anyway because I wanna be honest. I binged on... the Friday I think? Bad binge, sneaked loadsa food and alcohol and basically chugged whiskey (the sheer amount was so much I literally just retched typing the word of the drink... also I hate whiskey straight up I’m such an idiot.) but I had way too much. I can’t remember a lot of the night but I do remember being distant and forgetful and very obviously drunk early on in the day. I ended up being violently sick in our kitchen sink(!!) in the evening and my dad came in and was so angry at me for being so drunk (it was his whiskey too fml) and making a mess. He had to clean it up and somehow I made it to bed. Woke up feeling shit obviously and spent the whole of the next day throwing up foamy yellow bile and feeling like I was having liver failure and a heart attack all in one. So yeah, no need to tell me how shitty what I did was. I’ve never felt so humiliated and ashamed ever. I haven’t touched alcohol since. I’ve been determined to keep my eating good which so far has been ok. 4 days binge free after today. My dad knew how ashamed and sorry I was and by some miracle forgave me and was totally nice to me the next day and sympathetic with my sickness(I can’t even with him I don’t feel like I deserved that.) my mum was really understanding too because she’s had alcohol problems in the past (she still drinks now but keeps it in control.) I hope, I really hope, that I have turned a new leaf. I never want to go through that again. I never want to binge like that and drink that much again. I just want balance. I’ve been eating ok and exercising the days since and it’s actually made me feel less shitty about myself. So yeah, let’s see where we go from here . #edrecovery #ed #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #binge #bingeeating #bingeeatingrecovery #bingeeatingdisorder #bingeeatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #edfam #edfamily #edwarrior #recoverywin #bingefree #strongnotskinny #balancednotclean #edfighter #edsoldier #prorecovery #foodisfuel #beated #bedrecovery #vegan #beatana #realrecovery
Breakfast today was a cinnamon raisin bagel with the tofutti brand cream cheese again! #edrecovery #edfam #anorexia #bulimia #ednos #ocd #recoverywin
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