The hot question of the month has been if Im done having kids or if we want more. It's ironic how this question has been in the front of my own mind and maybe it is because the question has been coming at me more than usual the past few weeks and I don't really know what to think of it! I mean is this a sign? 🤪😅 So here I am getting real personal and real with you all. It's a topic I've always brushed over because the future is long, I am young and I'm not one to say never. The answer to this hot question is yes, we desperately want another baby. Our hearts are begging for another baby. And yes I CAN get pregnant again. It's not ideal after a tummy tuck obviously, but it won't kill me and you absolutely can after weight loss surgery. There are obviously so many factors holding me back. I look at the past 3 years and it terrifies me thinking about the possibility of starting over. I ask myself quite literally every day if I'm mentally strong enough to keep my body healthy during a pregnancy but the honest, realistic truth is I can't control how my body and my head will respond to pregnancy. With Bryn and Lainey, I got really bad pregnancy depression. I get extremely swollen. I get really sick and fatigue and it's a long 9 months. With Bryn, I ate everything I wanted to, I thought if I ate, I would feel better. I gained 100 pounds. With Lainey, I knew better, I knew what to expect. I controlled the cravings, still ate larger portions and didn't watch closely what I ate, but I did manage my diet more than I did with Bryn and I still gained 100 pounds both water retention weight and normal weight. Parts of me wonder if it was the depression and the raging hormones and I wonder if I can control the depression, I might have a better and healthier 3rd pregnancy. Is weight gain keeping me from having another baby? Absolutely not. I know how worth it babies are. But I'm allowed to be scared and I'm allowed to question my ability to do it again. We have no time frame. I don't feel rushed at all and maybe our minds will change again! Gotta love life!
My MOTIVATION MONDAY 💚
Is never going back to that 🔙
Not just because I was seriously overweight but the person I had become.
The DEPRESSION was real!
I am the type of person who will try and keep it all together and hide the fact that I am literally losing it in my head.
Trying hard as hell not to let anyone see me crack. Then it all just comes up because you can’t hold it in anymore. So when I say I don’t want to go back to the old Melissa i realllly don’t.
When I started my journey it took me a long time to get to the place that I’m in now. I had to get my head clear and that’s happens a few times the last year, it happens! Once I felt really good there was no stoping me and there still isn’t. When I hear family or friends say you changed? But In a good way!Your face lites up with excitement and you can see it in your eyes.
I think that’s the best compliment I’ve got from Wayne (my babe) 💚
It’s the little things I promise you. Start with little steps of you aren’t ready to commit to anything. But once your there and you give it your all now that’s the best fucking feeling 💚💚
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Feelin cute, might work out later 🤪