My baby, my first born. He has stressed me out to my max. He has helped me grow as an adult and a mother. He has tested my patience. He taught me how strong I really am. He has shown me unconditional love. He has made me laugh hysterically. He has made me cry. We have been through so many ups and downs together. I get so frustrated watching him ignore his true potential and dumb himself down for likes. As a parent you can only guide them so much, they have to choose their path. He is so stubborn just like his mama. He chooses to learn the hard way.
Me and his dad have always had the agreement that at a certain age we would let him decide who he wants to live with. That age has crept up on me quicker than I imagined. Almost 12 years ago, I gave birth to him 2 months short of my 18th birthday. I was young and dumb and thought I knew everything. I wonder where Gavin gets that from?!? How has it even been almost 12 years?! Where did the time go?!
I knew this was going to be hard, but saying bye and knowing I will only see him certain times of the year is so, so hard. He's lived with me his whole life. I know this is what's best though and I know he needs his dad at this critical time in his life. His needs have to come before my feelings.
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