3 days after i had the boys my nurse asked me to visit a patient admitted to my old room in the high risk unit b/c we had similar stories and each needed a friend.
cj and i wheeled ourselves down the hall (h2 in the NICU) to meet @lnazaret.
we shared stories - me, fighting to keep my pregnancy from 23-36 weeks ; her, fighting to keep hers at 6 months...for the 2nd time, having lost one of her son’s twins 3 years prior. bf leaving, i asked what she was most upset about (other than a long stay ahead). she said she didn’t want to miss taking her 3 yo trick-or-treating that halloween. .
so we came up w/ a plan: i’d p/u halloween decorations @partycity
after i was discharged, we’d deck her room out, set up a candy bowl at the nurses’ station and her little guy would wear his wolverine costume. best laid plans... when i got to the hospital, i saw doctors rushing in and out of her room. i left and waited to hear. she texted me the next day: “we lost our angel today. but that doesn’t mean you stop texting me to tell me how your boys are doing. we crossed paths for a reason and i look forward to our new friendship, sister.”
since then lu and i have leap-frogged each other thru some of our darkest days of motherhood, each time one pulling the other closer to the light. she pulled for me through my journey with PTSD and PPD, i pulled for her through immense grief and loss.
last fall i posted lu’s pic when she was 16 wks pregnant and again in need of a miracle. y’all came thru w/ love, strength and hope. after 21 weeks on bedrest and a host of other measures, she got her miracle in the form of a double rainbow baby girl.
it’s unclear to me who gets a miracle or when or why. i’ve stopped trying to figure that out but if you’re still waiting for yours and need to borrow one, then this one’s for you.
we’re not meant to journey alone. find yourself a hope dealer bc you need it for a miracle and more so if you don’t get one.
. “if there comes a time when you’re ahead of me in the fog and i’m still in the dark. call back to me and i’ll follow the sound of your voice.” this friendship was made in the fire and it’s pure carbon 💎. #sisterhood
of the #motherhood