I need to read my picture post over and over today. I don't know what's going on. Like I said in my last post, I have had other times when I said I was going to quit drinking, but I never felt like this.
I think because my brain, my little addict voice, knows it's different this time, this time it's for real, that it's just screaming anxiety at me. Before I went to bed last night, I received a DM congratulating me and asking me what my recovery plan is. I almost threw up. Recovery plan? I was just going to stop drinking, tell my family that I've stopped and get inspiration from Instagram. But when I read that message, i realized "shit, i need a recovery plan". It's always the little voice of denial "You're not that bad. You don't get drunk everyday, you can just do this cold Turkey, no need for actual help."
So here I am, at work, feeling so excited but scared out of my mind. Looking up local AA meetings, looking up books on recovery, wondering if I'm going to go through actual physical withdrawal.
I would love to hear about everyone's first few weeks sober, about what plans they had, about what worked.
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